Coffee Talk Confession

Coffee Talk Confession

Hey there Sunshine! Glad to see you’re still hanging around. So much has been going on with me and well LIFE. It took me away for awhile, but I’m looking forward to getting back with you guys and sharing with you from time to time. I’m just an average blogger. I’m not this major influencer and have never really aimed to be. I’m just simply someone who enjoys sharing life with others. I’m hoping to inspire you to look at life and all it has to offer. To take the good and the bad and make the most of it. To believe in yourself and gain a sense of self-acceptance.  Its okay to be you because no one else can do it better.  So tell me, “What have you been up to lately?”

Personally, there have been many highs and lows in my life that happened over the last few years. I can’t recall if I shared it here, but I lost my dear, sweet grandma back in May of 2019. She was the light of my life, the matriarch of our family and it really affected me “emotionally”. It still does. I can see her smile as I write this. She was loved by all and I’m not just saying that because she was my Granny, she was the grandma to so many, and I truly miss her.

The C Word. I’m not going to say much, but it has truly affected the way things operate for me at work. Things changed in ways we could never image. Being an educator, during this time, has had it’s challenges and the emotional toil has been overwhelming. One of the many stressors has been the parents and others that are not educators forcing us to operate against CDC guidelines. We have sadly loss many educators due to this. The lack of care for our safety and the blatant disrespect created a strong emotional toll for me and thousands of others. I was angered at the backlash that was caused just because others were doing the right thing with trying to keep children and educators safe. The protest and threats at board meetings along with just sheer nastiness displayed online for all to see. Why??? This will forever be a lingering question.

This is not how I expected this post to begin, but like journaling, I guess it all needed to be said. It feels good to get it out and helps to ease some of the uneasiness I have inside. October is a rough month for me as it sparks memories of the loss of two of my very close friends. Today is the 10th anniversary of the loss of my friend Lagayla Sonte. She was a major light in this world. A school counselor, as well, and just a friend to all she met. I truly miss her. Later this month will be the 8th anniversary of a teacher and dear friend. We only knew each other a little over a year, but his love of science and zest for teaching drew me in right away. It was a hard loss to our school community. Miss you Matt. Although they are no longer physically here with us on Earth, just like my grandmother, I know they are all watching over me from heaven.

I didn’t expect to write about such sorrowful events, but just like life, sometimes things do not go as planned. I had planned to make this a currently post, but ended up writing out my thoughts as I would in my journal. Not trying to lower your spirits, but with yesterday being World Mental Health Day, I hope that you, too, will take time to do whatever is needed to help improve your overall health and well-being. Some activities that help me are journaling, spending time with others, caring for my plants, spending time in nature…not hiking or anything like that…hehehe…but maybe the beach or sightseeing downtown, singing in the car, dancing, and looking at feel good shows and videos. You know there are some amazing pet videos out there that can keep a smile on your face.

I thank you for sticking around to the end and I look forward to sharing more with you in the near future. Until then…

2 thoughts on “Coffee Talk Confession

  1. It’s lovely to hear from you again! I imagine it’s been tough dealing with the C word and parents and families not being very courteous or understanding when it comes to keeping those in schools safe. I’m sorry for your loss. October is a strange month for me. I lost someone who was like an aunt to me almost 10 years ago now, and I lost my grandma in the spring but her birthday would have been October 1 so we celebrated her on that day this year with the memorial, etc. Regardless, October is my favorite month so I am trying to enjoy the fun things and make plans, which is usually helpful for my mental health. It’s good to have positive things to look forward to.

    Lauren
    http://www.shootingstarsmag.net

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    1. Hey Lauren! Thanks for stopping by. I have been trying to get back here for awhile and decided last night just to do it. I appreciate your kind words and sorry to hear of your loss as well. I hope the memorial went well and brought you some peace. And yes, it is always fun to have something positive to look forward to. See you around soon.

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